let it be (':

yeah. so it have been awhile i didn't update my blog. a little bit busy. to be honest, being form 5 students, 24 hours is not enough. i want more. so, i've something to shared/ it's not funny it's not a midnight story. it's about my life, my journey. ya allah, why it is so hard to be happy? i know it's my journey, you put me here. so i've to carry on and trust you. but i'm not too strong enough dear allah :( i just need someone who can be true of me, be with me no matter how hard the situation is, and won't get tired of me as i am too annoying as hell. i know who i am.

nak salahkan sesiapa pun tak boleh jugak. kan? am i too emotional? or too annoying? i think it twice every time i fall asleep. i keep thinking bout it cause i know, nobody would. memang kadang-kadang aku tak ambil serious tapi bila dapat tahu perkara yang aku sendiri nampak depan mata. hati ni automatik sakit. aku tahu aku bukan sesiapa. takde pape pun pada kau. kau layak layan semua orang sama macam kau layan aku. tapi kau tahu kan aku sayang kau. i keep telling you i love you, everyday. cause what? cause i'll never know when it might be the last time. kot ajal aku dalam masa terdekat ni. cemana?

aku cuma nak kau tahu satu je. kot ada orang lain yang boleh buat kau happy, ada orang lain yang sayang kau tapi satu je aku nak kau tahu. sayang diaorang tak sama macam aku sayang kau. aku ni susah nak sayang orang. sangat susah. tapi bila aku dah sayang, macam ni jadi. so, what should i do eak? berkawan? tak salah. tapi sorry. i don't shares what's mine. i won't give up. but as long as i am trying you should be staying.

it's okay. allah knows what the best for me. just remembered, allah won't test his servant beyond their capability (: just let it be. cuma ingat ni satu je. ingat sampai mati. aku tak pernah sayang orang lain macam aku sayang kau. take note!

p/s: i won't keep you long, but i'll promise i'll keep you forever..